The most embarrassing thing about me that I can possibly tell you is what happened on my first day of kindergarten. I don’t really remember what happened at school, only that I came home crying. My mom asked why, and, through choking breaths and a runny nose, I replied: “No <gasp> body <gasp> likes meeeeeee!”
I don’t know how I got this idea, but the feeling was very strong. And I still get that feeling on the first day of the shoot.
I don’t actually come home crying, anymore, but my wife says I always tell her that no one on the crew likes me.
Eventually, I realize I’m not a leper or a pariah (unless I’m working camera), but that first-day-of-school feeling has never quite left me. Not really sure why.
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